Anyway... im not free as the title written..just feel very sienz with studies..everyday tutorial ,lab lecture,study...In fact i just came back from my mid term econs paper..yea..AT NIGHT..haven eat my dinner oso..the test started at 7pm..but have to leave early to the exam venue..no time to eat..freakin hungry now..but dun worry..i adi ta pao the dinner adi..eatin now..got meat vege tauhu and rice..typical ECONOMICAL rice..tats y now got time to write..after this have to go study AGAIN..ARGH!!!!!can timagine..my study week is actually CNY holiday..so half of the time i adi spend in back in m'sia..i din tell many people though..coz it was a rush..onli manage to go bk for 4 days...in this 4 days.. the 1st day which i went back and reached home ard 4pm and had family reunion dinner..the next 2 days spend almost the whole day in relative's house..reached home night adi..lazy to go out..then the last day i started to stock up and pack food back here in S'pore..my whole bag is full of food and onli food..my mom was wandering there is insufficient food in S'pore..lol..
Then after tat im back in small little cubicle room..lock in the room study and study and study....sienz...
Remember last time our teacher back in m'sia kept sayin we cannot study last minute for exams..but we still doin it..we still reading the text book the day b4 exam..still dunno a lot of things..and the results still OK..but here is freakin no last minute..the moment u lack behind..u r as good as dead...like me..last sem..lol..
Seriously..life is totally diff from the life in 2nd school or college..like myself..bk in the old school days nv once i stayed up late at night 1 or 2 am to study..not even exam..
but here i everyday sleep at 2am..wake up at 8 am..last sem ppl were lookin at me with a shockin face when i told them i sleep at 12am..to them..life just started..tat time is their most active moment..even now i sleep at 2am...which i consider quite late adi..BUT there are ppl tat sleep at 3 or 4 am..Uni life is not as enjoyin as most of u think..at least not in S'pore..haaha..And there is seriously no more such thing as spoon fed thing adi..the tutors and lecturers dun give a damn or heck care whether u do work or not..even i sleep in the class..nobody cares..no 1 will throw cholk or duster at u..to them as long they finish teaching the chapter assigned to them can adi..unless u showed a lot of interest and ask alot of qns..or else they wont even noe who u r..
Besides time really flies here..last time i still remember..when the school starts..we were still relaxing even for the 1st 2 months..after tat onli start to get serious..here there is almost no time to rest lor..rite after the sem starts have to revise the work every lecture..on the 6th week of the sem is mid term..then on the 12 week finals adi..but the materials we study is like 1 whole freakin text book..i somehow regreted tat rotted at home for 1 whole year.but there is no turnin back adi..tat 1 year make me realize.time flies..and oso this reminds me bout some of my frens sad stories..
there is some of them their dad passed away adi..their allowance are either from their uncle or apply for bursaries..but even so is not enough to cover everything..they even work durin sem just to earn enough money to survive..i really respect them and oso a bit feel ashamed of myself..i still remember wat LEE wrote in his blog bout the money earned by himself and feel proud of it..As u all noe the s'porean nid to go NS..and they get paid..they can spend their money freely..without worries..but as for me..i haven work b4..nv really go out and earned money..even i wan to treat them i have to think twice..coz the money im usin is my parents money..
they work so hard to send me here then i spend recklessly..felt a bit guilty..then the results are not as good as i expected..sort of i felt like let them down adi..sigh..but some how i feel im quite a lucky guy to have frens around when i feel sad or lonely..
I dunno y..but for me i heard a few bad news from frens..some of them lost their dad bcoz of illness and my fren's fren just past away bcoz of car accident..then recently my another fren witness a car accident when he is goin for supper..the accident just took place few meters behind him..life is full of unexpected stuff..u wont noe wat will happen next day..i think im a bit slow in realizin all this now..haaha..wat to do..nv step out from mommy's protective house..tats y when come out seriously open eyes big big..
While writtin this, i was chatin with tC....we talk bout school work,girls,frens, life.. seriously misses those life tat we go yam cha together talk cock...talk bout girls.. girl guy relationship...etc..but now most of them r in aussie adi..when i go back this comin vacation oso nobody back there liao..feel quite sad..especially when i looked back at the pics we took last time it sure brins bk a lot of memories...haaha..i really regreted came bk early last december..din manage to join my frens trip..seems like quite fun and enjoyable..and more importantly..everyone was there..except me of cause..haaha..
Oh crap..have to study for tmr mid term paper adi..haven study a shit..sick of the life adi..mug mug mug all the way..wat a life..seems empty..but like i mentioned b4 luckily have frens ard..life is not tat bored yet..haaha..